I’m coming to you today from the most incredible little island spot. Edit
I flew down yesterday with a girlfriend from College, we both were in need of a little time out so it could not have been more perfect.
I’m hoping everyone had a wonderful week and didn’t freeze to death if you were part of that vicious cold snap up north. I am recovering from my case of the Mondays. It’s not a one day fix, but I will find my place and my rhythm in this new life. You may not all know that I used to be an Air Force pilot. I injured my neck and had surgery about 2 years ago. The surgery didn’t take as well as it should have, there was already too much damage. We can chat about the specifics another day if you’re interested. I guess technically I am still a pilot but they refuse to let me fly with meds! Sleep tight, they do check the pilots. Lol.
So as I sit here on a beautiful island I have stuck in my head Blue Monday. Did you know that Blue Monday is an actual thing?!! I know! It’s considered to be the most depressing day of the year, what fun! It is determined each year by a highly scientific, found on the internet, formula. (I found it on the google therefor I know it to be truth.)My case of the Mondays is an ongoing adjustment to my new life and overall I’m doing well. I struggle with acceptance and how I feel physically but I feel I’m on the right path. But I worry about others. Depression/sadness/blues/ chronic pain are hard to see. What should chronic pain look like?
I’m taking a lift from the handicap assist car in the Toronto Airport. It was too far to walk while carrying my purse. I wonder what people think when they see me, I don’t scream pain.
I just left the hospital Pain Clinic. I do muscle injections every 6 weeks. I used to have to sit nauseous with my head between my knees for at least an hour before I could drive. Now I’ve got the hang of it and I just have to get a cup of tea and mellow. I don’t think that story shows in my face. I wear bright red lipstick to cover it up, and I smile. I always smile. Smile smile smile. Right up until I pass out/black out I smile. This I know from fact. I am happy and I like to smile. I like to be joyful, being in pain doesn’t mean I’m a different person. I’m still me. You just have to look for my tells to see how I’m actually feeling. Red lipstick, generally a hint. 😉
Back to Blue Monday, I think it’s hard to ask for help, I have resources, so many resources but what if I didn’t? So ….I wondered if I might ask you a tiny favour…. maybe watch and see if you know someone who might need a gentle hug or a listening ear. You have no idea how much it means to someone to have a listening ear, a supportive word, a cup of tea.
I hope that tomorrow is a gorgeous day for you, I’m going to do my best to post some fabulous pictures, I have an amazing week ahead and I cannot wait to share it with you. I hope I can bring you a little joy and inspiration.